Don't give up, keep going, and keep on keeping on. These are all wonderful sayings, but they don't fill that void we feel does it? What do we do when we want to just give up and go home? You know that feeling. That darkness you feel creeping over your heart like a shadow. The shadows grow darker and greater as you realize more and more that you are completely out of your element. You shouldn't be here, go back to Idaho, give up on this. See the people you love in the West, the mountains, the trees, and where you grew the most.
Those voices grow louder and louder as time gets on, you hear them don't you? Everyone I have ever met has heard those voices at least once. I hear those voices of self-doubt, loneliness, and exhaustion almost everyday. The hustle and bustle of moving to a new place really starts to wear you down after a few weeks. You don't know what to do with yourself really. You know that you have purpose, you have meaning, and you have worth. These things that we know and we have to yell out loud just so we remember that its true...
Taking a leap of faith, moving from one life to another, is exhausting and terrifying. I feel like Walter Mitty most days. I daydream and think about what I want to do and what I want to say but I never have the courage to say it, or the courage to do it...but now I have it and I do it.
With all of this being said, I am still exhausted and embracing a new life. On top of all of that, I am fighting a cold (which is the devil plague FYI). The only thing that I can say to people going through a leap of faith is to enjoy the little things. Somebody recognizing you in the local coffee shop or grocery store. That 10 minute walk across a field to go to work where you can see God in the sunset or lose yourself in the beauty of Creation. You won't embrace a new place in a few weeks, it takes time, but see what you are, and see what you want to be. Take a deep breath, and when you are ready...jump.
Taking a leap of faith, moving from one life to another, is exhausting and terrifying. I feel like Walter Mitty most days. I daydream and think about what I want to do and what I want to say but I never have the courage to say it, or the courage to do it...but now I have it and I do it.
With all of this being said, I am still exhausted and embracing a new life. On top of all of that, I am fighting a cold (which is the devil plague FYI). The only thing that I can say to people going through a leap of faith is to enjoy the little things. Somebody recognizing you in the local coffee shop or grocery store. That 10 minute walk across a field to go to work where you can see God in the sunset or lose yourself in the beauty of Creation. You won't embrace a new place in a few weeks, it takes time, but see what you are, and see what you want to be. Take a deep breath, and when you are ready...jump.
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